Of Course

Not only did I get my AF, but I got it while we were away for our anniversary. I spent 10 minutes crying and moved on. Not bad right?? I t must ahve been the BBEAUTIFUL 1300 SQ> FT. Corner suite we were in ; )

Not much

I honestly don't know what to say. In three days time I will, but not now. I know these things: Yes my boobs hurt way earlier than usual in the tww. Like by 5 days. This did happen when I had one of the chemical pregnancies. I am tired. and That's it. I am not feeling it either which is a big indictor for me. I am trying to focus on this being my anniversary weekend. We are going to have so much fun and I just hope I don't ruin it by being sad. It's just that we are also coming up on our anniversary of trying too and that is NOT one I will celebrate

Here I go again...on my own

Why is the Whitesnake song "Here I go Again" playing on a loop in my brain? Oh that's right, because here I go again. I am back in the two week wait. I was not heartbroken last mont when af showed up. Not thrilled of course, but not heartbroken. I think I will be equally ok this month. I think it has something to do with:
1. My optimistic outlook isn't so optimistic anymore. Not that I am hopeless that it will EVER appen, just that I don't expect it to any time soon.
2. I am excited about the holiday season. It is such a great and pleasant distraction.

So back to the Whitesnake song, I have to laugh out loud(literally) that I am aplying it to infertility. But it really is quite fitting.

Send "Here I Go Again"
(coverdale/marsden)

I dont know where Im going
But, I sure know where Ive been
Hanging on the promises
In songs of yesterday
An Ive made up my mind,
I aint wasting no more time
But, here I go again
Here I go again

Tho I keep searching for an answer,
I never seem to find what Im looking for
Oh lord, I pray
You give me strength to carry on,
cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

An here I go again on my own
Goin down the only road Ive ever known,
Like a hobo* I was born to walk alone
An Ive made up my mind
I aint wasting no more time

Im just another heart in need of rescue,
Waiting on loves sweet charity
An Im gonna hold on
For the rest of my days,
cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

An here I go again on my own
Goin down the only road Ive ever known,
Like a hobo* I was born to walk alone
An Ive made up my mind
I aint wasting no more time

But, here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go...

An Ive made up my mind,
I aint wasting no more time

An here I go again on my own
Goin down the only road Ive ever known,
Like a hobo I was born to walk alone
cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams