Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Round and Round

I went in for my day 3 ultrasound today. I feel like I am on a carousel. Around and around I go, when can I stop--nobody knows. So yet again I saw someone new. A different nurse and a different doc. At least at this point I have seen all the docs so next time HAS to be a repeat. They are always nice and try to answer my questions but I still feel alone. Seriously, if someone asked me who my doctor is, I would have to say "uh I am not really sure." I get a new one each time. It feels like starting over almost every time I go.

The worst part was this, the doc who did my hysteroscopy said my polyp could have caused my miscarriages. BUT the doc today said it didn't. Wow. No one is sure? One lied? I am soooo lost.

In any case, I was given the green light to start trying again. Although I felt great about it the other day, I am just scared to death now. Am I really prepared to handle a fourth miscarriage? I know you can't really be prepared, but can I handle it I suppose is the better question. I am sure I will feel better later, but today I just have that run down feeling. Like pure exhaustion from the emotions of all this.

They upped my clomid dose. It seems that whenever I ask questions about my meds, they do what I say rather than informing me of why what they say is right. I forgot (like a bozo) to ask my MOST important question today too. WHY AM I ON CLOMID IF I OVULATE ON MY OWN? Does ANYONE have an answer to this???? To get a better egg is my guess. But I am sick of being my own doc. Someone guide me please.

When it comes down to it, I may need to search a new RE. Anyone know a good one in Philadelphia?

3 comments:

Sam said...

I believe http://leerypolyp.blogs.com/the_modernity_ward/ is in Philly. She struggled with PCOS and is usually full of useful info. She does have a small child and one on the way, just to let you know.

andnotbysight said...

I hope you get some better answers soon! If I come across any info on doctors in Philly, I'll pass it on!

motheringmymiraclemultiples said...

I went to Abing.ton Reproductive in Abington and had zero success. It was a joke. I finally was seen at Coop.er Institute...they have an office in Melros.e Par.k and in Marl.ton NJ. Dr. Jerom.e Che.ck is the guy in charge and is BRILLIANT. Over in the NJ office, Dr. Jewe.l Am.ui was my doctor. She was amazing!!! We got twins on our 2nd IVF...oh...and they have the least expensive IVF I have ever seen....

Clomid increases the number of eggs that are produced. They should have you trigger to make you ovulate although, you can ovulate on your own while on clom.id.