Thursday, November 5, 2009

Well hello there!

It's been an eternity since I have posted but certainly not since I have been reading up on everyone. Everything is going well. I have 5 weeks and 5 days left to go! Although judging by the size of me.. not that long probably. I haven't had too much to write about.. until now.

One of my greatest friends in the world. One of the ONLY two who helped me every step of the way through my ups and downs of IF, may be experiencing it too. She was so wonderful to me and I am feeling completely guilty for informing her so much about everything I went through.. because now I think I have instilled fear in her. She isn't actually trying yet, but she and her husband decided to go off the pill about 3 months ago. Well, still no period. I sent her to my gyno because she needed a new one anyway. After bloodwork he instantly decided to send her to a specialist.. my specialist. I am happy she is getting checked out, I am happy they have an idea of what they think her problems may be, but I am sick for her that she is now walking in the doors to all of these places that I spent 18 months crying to her about. She is staying positive because she has no reason not to be yet, but all I can think of is the fear she must have. How could she not wonder if her road ahead wil be like mine. Logically, everyone is different and her journey will be completely different, but the world of logic goes right out the door with IF doesn't it!

Well, my baby shower is this Sunday and I can't wait. I still have to pinch myself on a daily basis. Is it all real yet?? NOPE! But getting there every day. Wishing the best AS ALWAYS!!!!!


Astrid said...

Glad to hear things are going so well! Wow, a baby shower, that has to make it feel real! Re: your friend, first, she is probably glad to have someone that understands all these things and that she feels comfortable talking to (I know I wish I had that IRL) so try not to feel bad that you may have scared her, feel good that you can provide a helping hand going forward. Plus, you are having a baby so that has to infuse some optimism. Second, my first time off the pill I didn't start cycling right away either, I don't think it's that abnormal. I took some provera and after that you could set a clock by my AFs and O's. No problem conceiving after that (just not a healthy pregnancy unfortunately). Third, in my experience, being referred to a specialist might mean absolutely NOTHING. I can't count how many times I've gone in for a simple issue and the first dr I talk to either has no idea what to do or refuses to express an opinion for fear of being sued because they don't have a PhD in that subject - they always refer me to specialists and the specialists are the ones that end up telling me everything is normal. Once I even got the "no need to even come in call" from the specialists after the first doctor had spent weeks hounding me to make an appointment. So do tell her not to worry. At this stage it could be nothing, really.

Emily said...

Good to see a post!! I was totally off the radar for awhile too. We are so close - so exciting. Enjoy your shower - one of the best days of my life. Hope your friend gets good news.